I trusted you so
much, more than one could imagine,
I loved you so
much, more than one could express,
But you
disappointed me, giving me a migraine,
And shattered my
hopes and dreams, throwing me into distress;
I thought you loved
me the way I am,
I thought we were
meant to be together,
I never thought you’d
smash me like ham,
And make my heart’s
pieces to gather;
I know I am not
perfect in any manner,
But the words you
have spoken, my heart it did plunder,
Tearing me into
bits and pieces,
Making me feel the ugliest
of all species;
Your words as I saw
it, were so sweet and tender,
But never knew it
was against me, my name to slander,
Crazy I am now, as I
sit and ponder,
Is this it? In pain
I cry, with my thoughts that wander;
I questioned
myself,
How is it that I never
thought you’d do this?
My heart replied
you guys are the blood of my life;
Did you even think
that blood was life in itself?
I’m sure not, for
you thought I’d never have a ‘self’.
Did God make me
this way?
I’m so sure he has
his own way,
In making me the
way I am, he had in mind what I am,
But in giving me
people like you, was it to put me through shame?
I’m so sure, it’s
not that way,
I’m so sure he has
his own way,
Cos, Great is the
One God I believe in,
Awesome he is in
guiding me,
Moulding me through thick and thin,
His actions in me I
see;
I pledge not to ask
you anything about it,
Just seeking God’s
help for my life to be lit,
Life is indeed a
long journey of learning,
As I continue to
yearn to find its meaning;
Let my life go on,
as our days go by,
Disturbing you not,
as I struggle to make ‘us’, ‘my’,
I will laugh out my
cry, won’t let my emotions fly,
Still groaning within,
caging my love in a sty;